Addicted To Bad Ideas

So glad that it's Friday. Do have to say, the work weeks have been going by quickly here at the new job. This week will be my fourth one completed, so a month. So glad that I get paid this coming Wednesday, so I can pay my fucking bills!! I really want to join Curves. May check it out after work, although, I should really just head home and start getting ready, since the reservations for Bicycle are at 7, and with downtown traffic and that, we'll have to leave a little after 6. It's a shame that I feel the need to fork out what will peobably be $50 a month or so to get the exercise that I could, concievably, get in my own home, for free. The only thing is, I know that I will not stick with it, but if I have paid for it, and am out with people, and it becomes part of my routine, then maybe I will. I'm so mad that I did not stick with walking when it was summer and stayed light for so long. Now, it's dark just about when I leave work, and walking is just out of the question. Unless I went to the mall and did laps there, but then, of course, there are mall temptations, so what can you do? Went to Red Lobster with Tia Wednesday. That was my one meal for the day. Felt stuffed, maybe my stomach shrank a little. Had fried shrimp, a plain baked potato (just salt), which was surprisingly delicious for its simplicity, a Caesar salad, and two Cheddar Bay biscuits. Tia remarked that I got my hips and butt back, but that I look so much better than when I was so skinny following everything that happened. I know a lot of people said that I didn't look healthy being that skinny, but I like the way I looked. I guess now really all that I want is to lose some of it, maybe not go all the way back to twenty pounds lighter, but the way that I looked when Nick and I started dating, when I was so fretting about starting to put it back on, that's how I want to look now. Watched Top Chef with Carmin, and Nick and I discussed it last night. So far, the girl from Baltimore is painfully dull. The Finnish guy is pretty arrogant, but I think that he's my favourite so far. Nick came down last night and we went to The Wind-up. No show and pleasantly empty. Rob was already there, and then Angel and Lori showed up. There is so much drama going on regarding the whole Rob and Angel thing, of which I am thouroughly exhausted, and now there's Lori wanting to talk to me, and then Angel turning around and wanting to talk to me, and I really don't want any part of it. Anyways, had some drinks, never felt anything though. Nick wanted a snack on the way home. I totally didn't feel hungry and wasn't going to get anything, but he said that he thought that I had been doing good and that it wouldn't hurt (which I don't agree with, but was terribly nice to hear that that is his opinion.), so we each got a bag of Combos, although I ate only a few, so I atleast feel good about that. I am excited to go to Bicycle tonight and see that beautiful boy.