Discipline

I really want my exercise bike at my apartment. I want to start some sort of regime. As much as I loathe the whole exercise-culture, there is part of me, having lost weight and now being in danger of gaining it back, but I feel like I really want to adopt some sort of program for ensuring that I keep this weight off (since it was the only time in my life when I've honestly loved the way I look. It's been the only good thing to come out of Rob and I separating, and it has made me define myself differently, more positively.). Of course there's the whole need for structure and a sense of purpose that I'm always going on about, as well.

I hope once the weather becomes nicer and I am able to take a proper lunch again like I used to, I will be able to get back into the routine of getting a coffee on my lunch. Having nothing till then, and then maybe something nice for dinner. See, I just need a routine to get in. This going for coffee every morning isn't cutting it. Also, I should probably cut down on it in general, for dehydration reasons, and definately get back to drinking decaf for the most part.

I would also like to develop some sort of plan for what I consume at home. Lots of cereal (Special K varieites, Honey Nut Cherrios, Raisin Bran, but the unsugared kind, maybe some Grape Nuts or Grape Nuts Trail Mix), Special K Cereal Bars, Raisins, English Muffins, those Lean Cuisine Pizzas or the Safeway ones that are low in fat and calories and high in protein. Cut out the regular soda at all times, even in the mixed drinks. Just remember to say Diet. I need to drink more water, I know, for good skin, as well. I really like Vitamin Waters, but they have far more calories than you would think.

One thing that is really hard for me is things like Goldfish or Cheeze-its that don't come doled out in portions. I will sit and keep eating and eating. I know they have those little packets, but not in the flavours I like really.

So starting today, I have had a Grande Mocha Frap (no whip, of course) and a Special K ceral bar (90 calories). I plan on having nothing else until dinner, which I intend to be something quite healthy and not at all gluttonous.