Carm and I got the house we went to look at on Sunday. The landlord texted me yesterday and said the place is ours if we want it. We're both very excited, it really is a terribly charming house, brick, three bedrooms, built in the 40's, huge rooms, in Hamilton/Parkville. I don't know how we're going to afford everything for a while, but in the words of Project Runway, we'll just have to "Make it work." So we have to give the guy one month's rent, non-refundable, to hold the apartment (I say apartment because we are renting it and not owning it, but it's actually a whole house we're getting) for the month of May, and then we'll move in in June, but the lease at fucking Fox Hall isn't up till the END of June, and the bastards, as expected, are making us pay the entire month of June's rent. They won't let us out early, even though we have never been late and have never gotten any satisfaction out of those people in two and a half years. I will just be glad to be done with them.

What really sucks is that I know I need to not spend money on superfluous or frivolous things, yet there are so many things that I am faced with wanting. More heels, for example. I really like those ones I got, and I'm afraid there is a sleeping shoe dragon within me that has been awakened. The first Kills album, if I can ever find it someplace. Checked Soundgarden, Record and Tape, and CDepot. Nick said to try True Vine, so maybe I'll do that this weekend. Carm and I are supposed to go to a Flea Market at The Charm City Artspace this Saturday, and if there's time, I'd like to go to Hampden. Either that or I could always go back and bum around on my own once she goes to work. The new Kooks album should be coming out soon. Control and Atonement I want on dvd. I really need to go through and get rid of junk, especially now with moving. Oh, it's going to be so good, it's so liberating to purge.

Nick texted me yesterday that it is totally rural out there and he is banging his head against the wall, it is so boring. They start driving today. While I think it would be fun to go on a roadtrip (when Rob and I went to Saratoga Springs the other year, it was a good time), there's part of me that would just get sick of the driving and just want it to be over with, I think. I said I was going to go to Two For Tuesdays tonight, he said he figured. I said the bar may close up if neither of us was there. Carm is supposed to come with me, but we'll see. I told her I wrote up a thing just saying that I'm going to spot the whole security deposit and she's going to pay me her half when she gets it, and I could tell she got made. It offended her that I would do that, and while I know I don't have to, I mean, I know she's good for it and we are best friends and it would never come to me suing her or anything, still, I don't know. I thought it would be good to make everything official. Kind of on account of what happened with Rob and all, even though I know Carm would never do anything like that, and her and I need eachother too much to ever be able to fuck the other over, besides never doing anythinglike that anyways. I told her I was sorry and I didn't mean anything by it, but I can tell she's still mad. I told her I'd throw it away but I guess the damage is already done. Fuck.