Tacos, Rainbows, and Mousetraps

I came into work today, to a desk that looked like a damn avalanche had taken place on it, my supervisor pouncing on me about some problem before I'd even set my purse down. Numerous things contributing to my having the extreme desire to look for another job. I know I should, I also know I probably won't, but I really wish something would fall in my lap right about now.

The weekend seemed far too short, pretty packed, virtually no downtime I would say, which is good, but also leaves no room for recuperation or anything from it or the workweek, since now it's back to the same rat-race and drudgery. Ideally, I'd have one day a week to do absolutely nothing, or do things at my own pace, like whilst others are at work and I could just lounge around. Eh, it's not going to happen though I suspect haha.

Feeling kind of down, tired, but also feeling behind in so much. Bills, living beyond my means, things falling into various states of disrepair, lack of time. I don't want to get too far behind, I also don't want to miss out on opportunities to go out with Nick, or really just to see him. That leads me to wanting to take naps when I get off of work, which means I don't do laundry or unpacking or going out with my parents or hanging out with Carmin, or, conversely, if I still do all of those things instead of taking a nap, then I run myself down too much, and am worn out even more the next day. I got really sleepy last night when we left Club Charles (only like at 12:15, early by our standards), so Nick didn't come in, just walked me to the door. Carm was still up so I guess it was for the best that we didn't both come in with her still sitting up and immediately head upstairs and then him leave later on, but still, it saddened me for him to go, signaling the end of the weekend, and my having to come in here early, thus my needing my sleep, as it were. Friday night met Rob Soma and Laurie at Club Charles. We were both tired when we got home, but Nick wanted to watch some Direct TV in the little room, so I went to sleep, woke up to go to the bathroom, he was completely out on the sofa, so I turned the television off but couldn't get him to come to bed. Had to go over my Mom's to give Niles his pill, when I came back, he'd migrated back. Started the day off very well, stopped by his parents' house. They brought me back a pair of earrings from Puerto Rico, which was very nice of them. Then to the Latino Festival in Patterson Park. Some good food, walked around, then headed over to Pride Fest in Mount Vernon. Ran into Pete from high school and The Gap, Nick ran into a guy he works with. Interesting. I find that I really am pretty ok with whatever other people do, I don't feel anything, and I am very grateful for that. I feel blessed to be a tolerant person. Of course, I also recognise I'm not as PC as other people. Dinner at Brewer's Art, which was pretty good. We ended up going to 80's Prom. It was pretty fun. Didn't dress up, which kind of made me sad, but it was still so good to dance and Nick and I got on stage, which I hadn't done since the halycon days of Underground. Rob and my replacement were there, he looked ridiculous, which he said was the point. She looked fat in a pink tafata dress with her hair crimpted. By the end of the night, we figured Nick had drank around 18 beers, all totaled for the day. Needless to say, he was wasted and I drove home. He fell asleep on the sofa downstairs, he finally came up at some point, I woke up and he was there, which, of course was a welcome sight. Went to Rocket for brunch yesterday. Enjoyed it more this time (although, still not amazing), then to Druid Hill for the second day of Pride, seeing his lezzie brigade, a little regular work-out, although we didn't get to walk around the whole lake. Went to Tsunami for dinner, which was pretty much a disaster, incredibly underwhelming and overpriced. Put Nick in a depressed mood, we went to Club Charles and between some Jameson and Coke and freaking me out, teasing me about a half of mouse caught in a mousetrap we saw on the pavement, he cheered up. Rob Soma joined us for a bit, then we headed home. Killed me for him to go home, but I will be very glad to see him later and hopefully be far more awake.