This Is The Next Century

Got my hair cut yesterday. I guess she did a good job. I sometimes wish I could do something different or drastically more "scene," but I just worry that nothing else would look as good or suit me as well, and this cut is more timeless and atleast the basis of every "scene" girls' hairstyle variation. After I wash it and let it dry without laying down on it immediately after it will undoubtedly be more full and voluminous, as is always the case once it's been put back into shape.

Managed to not eat all day, had a venti quad mocha, which then gave me the shakes really bad while I was in the mall, and I actually was getting in line at Chik-Fil-A with the intention of just getting a sweet tea, but I stepped back and didn't even give into the temptation of that. Although, I am totally fantasising about Chik-Fil-A right now haha. Stopped at Superfresh and picked up three slices of watermelon, an apple, and a two liter of Cherry Coke Zero. Had the three slices of watermelon and saltines, and a small glass of soda. I do regret getting the Cherry Coke Zero a little bit now. Even though I really like it, I think I may have had enough for a while. It does get a little too sweet after a while. Anyways, I would have felt better eating even less than that, but I felt faint for a good part of yesterday, I imagine because my body was so used to having so much food stimulation of late, and it's kind of going through withdraw haha. Maybe today (and each day subsequent) it will get easier to fast. I love saying fast, since it conjuers up images of religious devotion, and has that connotation, instead of starving or simply not eating, which people tend to look down upon. People also look down on fatness (myself included), so it's very much a double standard. I have my yearly check-up today with that new gynocologist my Mom started going to now that Dr. Santos has retired. Hopefully she can give me some samples of my med's since they are eating me out of house and home having to pay for them out of pocket. That alone is one major incentive for me to get a new job, health insurance that would actually pay for what I take. That and better parking would be awesome--- and around $15 an hour.

Came home yesterday and Carmin was watching television, said hello, and I just got my watermelon and sat down on the sofa. Fatal Attraction was on again, so we watched that, at one point, we both started laughing and it was good to see her face crack into a smile and a little break in the clouds, recalling normalcy. Then Allen stopped down on is way home from work and stayed a while. When he left, though, she went up to her room, so I did, as well, working on putting stuff away. I feel like my room is lacking something in the way of knick-knacks or just personal affects sitting around, although I also don't want to go overboard with that sort of thing. I worked really hard to not have all that sitting EVERYWHERE, but I feel like it could use something. When I get out today after my doctor's appointment, I may check out the Goodwill or Ryan's Relics. I want something but I don't know what. After I piddled around with that for a while, I took a nap, sleeping right through when Nick texted me to say he'd gotten out of work. Since I'd taken my shower when I got home from getting my hair cut, all I needed to do was get dressed (meaning, finding something to shove my fat ass into). We hit Club Charles and discussed the restaurants we want to try this weekend. God help me with all of this delicious food. Rob Soma showed up, which was an unexpected, but, as always, pleasant surprise. Spent the night quoting Flight Of The Concords, which according to Nick, and judging by his exasperation, is what Rob did for the entirety of Sunday night when they went to see Dark Knight, as well. We were discussing relationships and while there are things regarding Rob and all that I would say to Rob Soma, I don't feel right discussing it in front of Nick. The spectre of Mr. Farley is too prevalent at times as it is. We did speak about ourselves, and Nick said why we work so well is because after a month, I could still deal with him and his personality, and I said that I embrace that, and as I have said before, being myself, within reason, of course, not being too comfortable or taking things for granted, or not putting any effort into apearence or attitude, but being real, and the whole thing how I tried to change or convince Rob I had changed or was made to feel that the things that initially drew him to me were now the things that were the ruin of us or just didn't float his boat anymore, and my not apologising or altering myself anymore. I do need to be more decisive in dining situations. We didn't stop at Subway on the way home, even though it would have totally been delicious, so I'm glad about that.

Tonight is Two For Tuesdays. I will be glad to get out of work early today, hopefully get to hang out with Carmin some. I wish this cold war would hurry up and end. I want to see Brideshead Revisited this weekend, worked in sometime around the grazing and reservations, and I want to ask Carmin to see it, too.